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Kidney Stone

Wed, 14 May 2008 14:41:30 GMT

I have a kidney stone.
It was seriously the most painful experience I've ever gone through in my life. Thank god for pain medication because if I didn't have that shit I'd still be in that much pain.
I missed my AP English exam this morning and will probably have to miss my AP World exam tomorrow. ANNNND I have hockey tryouts this weekend. Ughhh, this couldn't have any worse timing.

Happy birthday to meeeee

Thu, 22 Mar 2007 10:46:28 GMT

IT'S MY BIRTHDAYYY!!

I'm excited.

Whooooo are you, who who who who

Fri, 09 Mar 2007 14:04:47 GMT

I hate the day after concerts. I hate the feeling of still wanting to be there and wishing it wasn't over.
BUT DAMNNNN, was it amazing!

They started off pretty slow; I think they played some new stuff, but then they played the songs I wanted to hear. They didn't play Won't Get Fooled Again until the end though. && they did Tommy as the encore.
At first it was so weird, because they're SOO old, but then you got used to it, because they are still so amazing! Pete Townshend still rocked just as hard, and Roger Daughtry was an amazing singer, and still moved around like he was 20. Zak Starkey did a great job also; he wasn't Keith Moon, but he was sure close.

During Behind Blue Eyes the people right behind us pulled out a joint and we like..directly inhaled the second hand smoke, haha. They were so fucking high the rest of the night. Oh yeah, and the old people dancing was hilarious too. So weird.

I have pictures to put up...sometime soon.

Sun, 31 Dec 2006 17:39:58 GMT

Me
Me in NYC

You won't even respond to my text?

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 04:48:36 GMT

Oh my goodness.
I miss you so, so much.
&& it's only been a week since we've talked/seen eachother.

We used to talk almost everyday.
But ever since that night/day, we haven't said one word to eachother.

I told you in the beginning, that no matter what, I never wanted anything to get awkward and/or never have you stop talking to me.

I don't know what I did wrong. I don't know if you're doing this on purpose, just to make things easier. It's definitely not making anything easier for me, though. It's killing me. I've been trying to just forget about it and not think about it and stuff, but it just isn't working anymore. I give up on that....
I think about you every single day. I even thought about you in New Orleans. (Which was fun for the most part, btw; more on that to come)

It's making me edgy, or something. I blew up on my sister and got in a huge fight with her, not even realizing that she needed me. Now we're not even talking, but I can tell she needs to talk.

I really hope things are okay when we see eachother on Monday.

Mon, 06 Nov 2006 22:37:12 GMT

We had a hockey tournament this weekend in Rochester, NY. It was alright I guess, but not the best weekend. My doctor and physical therapist said that I shouldn't play, but on Saturday, I just couldn't resist. I played a few shifts in each game on Saturday, but I fell and bent my knee badly in the second game. Ick, so I couldn't play on Sunday. But coach got all mad and weird on me saying something about how all the effort I put in on Sat. was useless because I didn't continue on Sun. But I really thought I put so much effort in and I wasn't even supposed to play at all so come on. The ride back in the van was the most fun.

I missed homecomming, but I don't really give a crap. Homecomming is so overrated anyways. I was just glad Raul didn't end up going with that girl!

Here's pictures I have from Annie's BM from a while ago. I'll upload some more later of RLTI and the Rochester tourny, but I have to go eat and go to practice.

UHHH, YEAH.
THAT'S MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS FOR YA. =] =P

NO SCHOOL TOMORROW! Woot.

Live frommmm RLTI..

Sun, 29 Oct 2006 23:39:14 GMT

RLTI was awesomeeeeeeeee.
I love NRE, but especially DC COUNCIL.
I met some amazing new people, and got closer to a lot of other people.

BTW, RLTI is a convention for this Jewish organization I'm in called BBYO.

I have pictures to put up, even though I still haven't even posted the ones from Annies Bat Mitzvah [which I willlll get around to soon]. I just have to get my camera from Molly because I left it in her purse. Damn.

Don't you just love spending a weekend away from home and getting to hang out with awesome people? =D

Important && want feedback

Wed, 18 Oct 2006 17:49:16 GMT

I got in another "fight" with Michelle and Raul. The way they've been treating me recently is seriously not okay. Michelle will get mad at me for stupid reasons (or no reason what so ever) when I haven't even done anything. && she makes everything into a bigger deal than it is. Then Raul joins her and they team up on me to make me feel even more like crap. For example, this morning I walked up all cheery and stuff, and I threw my bag on the floor, and Michelle goes "That almost hit me." with this serious as hell face. So I was like "oh gosh Michelle no it didn't, but I'm sorry" in a joking way, and she kept arguing with me and making a huge deal out of it, so I say "Michelle, it's okay just relax it's not a big deal, why are you making it a huge deal?" and Raul says "Just shut up Laura, all you ever do is bitch." That was the last straw. I mean, what the fuck, I didn't do anything to them. They are (considered) my "best friends", yet they treat me like this contantly. I dunno.
This is really important to me, and it's the only thing that's really been hurting me recently. I'd appreciate feedback, or something. I dunno, I just wanna know if it's just me, or if other people have the same opinion as me and stuff.

Annie, my little sister, has her Bat Mitzvah on Saturday. So all the family is starting to come in today and leaving Sunday. I'm thinking it's going to be a fun weekend. I love [most of] my family.

Oh, so I actually talked to that guy Nick yesterday. *sigh* he is so cute and sweet. Lol, I feel like a little girl again, but whatevs, that's what a crush is, right? I wasn't looking my best yesterday though, so I don't think I left the best first impression, but tomorrow I will look my best. =] Even though looks don't realllly matter, there's no denying that the first attraction is from looks. Sunaina said he told her that he thought I was sweet though. =D

This is Annie, wearing Michael's hat.

This is Michael, one of our neighbors. He's Annie's age.

This is Sunaina and Nick. ♥

He's so cuuute. Especially when you know him.

This is Raul cooking. We love to cook together. When we're actually geting along.

Raul before the football game.

That's me on my crutches, Jet our little boy neighbor, and Michael in the background.

Jeff playing basketball. Jeff is my age; He's Michael's brother.

My awesome shot that I even made while on crutches.

Yeah, we always just hang around outside.

Me, sitting at my computer.

My silly dad. Haha, I love him.

This is little Jet, named after Derek Jeter. Isn't he a cutie?

Jeff. (the molesterrr)

That was right after Jet pinched mine and annie's butts. Michael was telling him that it was bad. Haha.

Josh (neighbor on the other side from Jeff and Michael), on the Drama Couch. =P

He has super pretty eyes. Haha.

This was the night after I hurt my knee, so I was using ice, and he spilled it all over me.

He's obsessed with the Redskins, even though they suck.

This is my mommah with Jakey.

Annie with Jake; aw, how romantic. =P

Funny looking pictures of Jakey, but I like them for some reason.

Some dog Jake was playing with at the dog park. He was pretty cute.

You said that you would die for me

Sat, 14 Oct 2006 04:12:53 GMT

I deleted my last entry because I don't even want to think about what happened yesterday, and I don't want to start any shit.
Basically, I just had a bad day.

My day started off like shit, but it ended up being nice. I went to Chipotle with Beth S., Michelle, Reid, Anna, and Beth. Then we went to Beth's house, and then the QO football game against Wootton.
It was definitely Friday the 13th; two ambulances had to come because one guy who was playing broke his leg or something and this one lady in the stands had a stroke (I think?) && then the lights in the stadium all turned off and it was pitched black. It was pretty interesting.

We bought the tickets for Louisiana today! We leave November 17th and come back on the 24th.
MANUEL IS COMING TO VISIT TOMORROW! I am sooo excited. I've missed him lots; it was really sad when he went away to college in Louisiana. He's like my big brother.

Just a few pictures I took one day when I was bored. That's my kitty, Lucy. =]

Aw, poor Jakey had his balls cut off and had to wear a cone. :(

Raul's a pirate.

On Annie's birthday.

Reid at the D-mas game.

Reid, Anna, and Michelle at the Wootton game.

Beginning of the Wootton game tonight.

Going to the doctor for my MCL (knee) on Monday to check it out.

Tom Morello, have my babies!

Tue, 10 Oct 2006 20:30:36 GMT

I love blasting Audioslave incredibly loud when I'm home alone.
Tom Morello is so effing amazing.

This weekend was one of those grood (in between good and great) weekends:

-The QO vs. Damascus game was SOOO intense and amazing. They came back from being down 28-7 at half time and won 35-28 in like the last 45 seconds. Everyone was going CRAZYYY. For those of you non-QOers, it was a huge deal for QO to beat them because they were like #1 and they were the only team that beat us last year.
They taped the game and showed it on TV last night because everyone like charged the field after the game. I just think it's kinda cool, haha.

-Employee of the month didn't really live up to my expectations. I'm used to Dane Cook being different, because he does stand up and makes his own jokes. I'm not sure if I like other people writing what he says for him. It was still good though, and he was amazingly sexy as usual.

I'm trying not to be sad and think about that today is the 10th and would be our anniversary. Wow, it would have been a long time. I just wonder if he thinks about those things too. Ugh, sometimes I just hate him so much, yet I miss him at the same time. ://

It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone

Sun, 24 Sep 2006 02:16:58 GMT

L'shana tovah, my little jews.
Rosh HaShana was pretty good. It was a bit depressing though, because
1. Today was the day of Virgin Festival. I really wanted to go it, like more than anythingggg. =[ I kept hearing stuff on the radio like "broadcasting liiiiive from virgin fest!!" and it made me want to like cry. rawrrr.
2. I had to go to services and have dinner with my grandpa and he was pretty sad today because it would of been my grandma's birthday and he kept saying how much he missed her and stuff.
After services though, we (Annie and I) came back and played street football with Jake, Michael, Evan, Josh, and Trevor (our neighbors and their cousins). That's always fun, so it was a good day overall. =}

Yesterday was good too. After school I went to Fudds with Michelle S, Michelle T, and Raul. We got our usual milkshakes, like always. Then we took the bus to their house and we had to bake some bread stuff for their mom. Raul had to go to work, so we dropped him off and Michelle and I came back here and baked some delicioso chocolate chip banana nut bread. I love Michelle, she's an amazing best friend. ♥

Tomorrow is going to a packed day of hockey practices, drylands, and games.

PICTURE TIMMMME!

yeah, I know michelle s sometimes looks like she's 10, but whatevs. Reid and her make a good couple though.

Raul looks really tall here. woot.

their dad is awesome. haha.

sibling rivalry. haha..

Uh oh...my throat is starting to hurt. That's not good, since about half the school has a cold/strep/mono.

I've been up for about...20 hours?

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 04:08:13 GMT

TONIGHT WAS AWESOME. It made me forget all the bad things going on. woot.

The day started off with waking up at 4AM (so I've been up for about 20 hours now) and driving to Reston for a hockey lesson and coming back, showering really fast, and going to school. I got in a fight with Michelle, but whatever, it got resolved.

So then Josh, Annie, Michelle and I went for a Chipotle run and then went to the football game. It was such an awesome football game. It started POURING rain, and it made the game just that much more intense and fun. We won of courseeee, like 42-26 or something.

We were all soaking wet, so we came back home and changed then Josh took us to get some iccce cream.
&& I told the lady that it was my birthday tomorrow (we are having a party type thing here tomorrow..soo..) and she gave me a free ice cream. Saweet, haha. Came back to the house and chilled out with Annie and Josh for a bit. Fun shtuff.

Tomorrow should be fun. I'm working in the morning with Raul and then going to the horse races. Then the little party type thingy tomorrow night. Josh is crashing here too since he isn't invited to his dad's birthday party tomorrow night, lol.

Ok Go - Here It Goes Again video makes me smileeee. =]

I got attacked by a mosquito and now have about 30 mosquito bites

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 20:07:28 GMT

This song just really gets to me. It like.. makes me cry. It just explains so many feelings I can relate to or whatever. && it's just so pretty. I dunno. Listen to it, or at least read the lyrics.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret (?)
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
Ooohhh....

I missss you.
I think I like you.
I think I like you, too.
I think you're cute and probably really sweet.

I'm not sure what(who) I want right now.
I think I really just want to be wanted.
Uhhh...

Good days gone bad.

Wed, 13 Sep 2006 01:37:53 GMT

I had a really good day. Until now, haha. Except it still was a good day, it just had a bad ending.
I got to sleep in because we had no school due to the elections taking place at the school.
So, Josh texted me and he was like "wanna chill later?", which threw me off because we haven't chilled in a really long time and stuff, but whatevs.
We left at around 1:00 and we picked Michelle up. Then we went to the RIO and went to Barne's and Noble/Starbucks and Potbellys. Then we drove around a little bit to stir up some drama, we love our drama, hahaaaaa. :P
Um, then I babysat and made $25 in like 2 hours, and they were easyyy for the most part. Pretttttty good.

So then we asked Josh if he could give Lexis a ride home so we went to Baskin Robbins first then took Lexis home and we were like laughing and having fun in the car and I was talking to Alexis on the phone and Annie says to Josh "Did you take your medicine today?" and Josh said no and Lexis was laughing on the phone 'cause she heard it and I was still laughing so Lexis was like "what are you still laughing about?" and I was like "hahah he didn't take his medicine" or whatever and Josh got mad at me. So stupid. I mean, she already heard Annie say it and stuff. But Josh like never truuuuuly gets mad, but he really is right now, and so it went from like being really fun and stuff to silence and awkwardness. && I just texted him and said "sorry if we offended you", but he's ignoring me. Whatever, i'm trying to be the big person here.
/rant

I hope he gets over it by tomorrow.

I almost told Michelle I liked her brother today, hahahaaa... but then I didn't

Love is just a lyric in a children's rhyme.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 17:15:14 GMT

Check out my older picture posts if you haven't.
&& Carolynn, do you still want to go to Virgin Festtt or no?

MINI-CAMP was this weekend. It was pretty intense.
We were on the ice for like 24 hours or so.
&& when we weren't on the ice, we were doing off ice.
I got a total of 1 hour of sleep, so I decided to sleep in. I just woke up about an hour ago, and I don't really feel like going to school because I feel all weak and my throat hurts a bit. I have to feel better though because we have hockey practice tonight. How stupid isssss that? Why won't he give us a day offfff?
It was still kinda fun though, and I did pretty well. I think the coaches like me, and I really have a chance to be Captain/Assistant Captain. I think we find out today. I'm so nervousssss.

Coach Sylvain is SO easy to make fun of. He does not stop talking. Haha, our team meetings that are supposed to be like 20 minutes turn into at least 45 min.-1 hr. meetings.
&& the best part is that he has a very heavy French Canadian accent and doesn't speak english thattt well. He thought the word for goosebumps was chicken pox, and he says words so funnily(yes, I made that a word). When he says "first, second, third" he says third like "turd" and he says "professional" like "pro-fess-ion-al". Yeah, I'm going to stop now because you really have to be there to get it, hahah.

We have no school tomorrow. Yessssss. I'ma hang out with Michelle and Raul and then babysit.

♥ Keane's Is It Any Wonder? + Under The Influence of Giants' Mama's Room

I guess I'm just gonna use today as a chance to get some stuff done. This calls forrrrrr a....To-Do List:

~~Finish reading The Hot Zone~~
~~Type up notes from The Hot Zone for essay~~
Figure out what to do for photo collage/look for words and pictures
Start photo collage
~~Get camera fixed (light meter isn't working)~~ (tomorrowwww)
~~Update profile~~/userinfo
~~Call Michelle/Raul to figure out plans for tomorrow~~
~~Call around and get homework assignments~~
Catch up on some shows
~~Hockey practice from 7-9~~
~~Figure out how to get Deviant Art to work~~ (It just won't send me the confirmation e-mail. I don't know how to fix it. This makes me sad. =(... )
Upload/edit some pictures

Here's a little F.F. - fun fact of the day for ya

Sat, 09 Sep 2006 02:08:03 GMT

Let me start off by saying DANE COOK IS MY HERO. I just finished watching his HBO special thing, and I love him all over again! I also have a very attractive picture of him in the cut below.

I was originally supposed to hang out with Michelle and Raul tonight, but then Raul got scheduled to work. So I was going to just hang out with/go to the football game with Michelle. But Michelle decided she didn't want to answer her phone or call me, so I was like alright I'll call in and see if they still need me at work 'cause I wanted to work with Raul anyways. They didn't need me though 'cause they got Jess and Missy to go in. =[ I was stuck all alone, so I asked my dad if he wanted to go out, lol.

We went to Barnes and Noble to get my Big Red Book of 551 Spanish Verb Conjugations, my Spanish/English Dictionary, and the new AUDIOSLAVE CD. Then we went to Robeks Juice and I enjoyed it very much. =D
&& let me just say: I EFFING LOVE AUDIOSLAVE! No matter what, they always seem to be amazing. I wasn't expecting much from their new album, and while it's probably not as good as Out of Exile, it's really good. They honestly make me smile. I'm just listening to the album, smiling away.

Mini-camp is tomorrow. The most intense weekend of the season/pre-season. We will be working intensly hard non-stop from Saturday morning until Sunday night. I need to get ready for death tomorrow.
Wish me luck.

Whyyyyy must he be so sexxxy and funny and arrrgh.

OKAY, NOW SOME RANDOM PHOTOS

(BEWARE: SOME CAM-WHORING BELOW)

kissies.

HANGING WITH MICHELLE&RAUL

I just used some new version of photobucket (like, Flock Photobucket or something) and it was pretty cool. Go download it, it only takes like 5 minutes to do all of it.

Life is goooood.

Mon, 04 Sep 2006 15:03:56 GMT

I had hockey practice yesterday morning from 10-2, and it was crazy intense.
Now I am crazy sore. I love/hate being sore.
My coach came up to me after practice and told me that I did a really good job and he could see I was working very hard. :D that made me super happy.

I'm going to the pool with teh michelles, raulness, reidy reidy reidster, and yeah. This is only the second time i'm going to a pool in a year. Weird.

All everyone is talking about is The Crocodile Hunter dying!
R.I.P Steve, who got killed by a sting ray.

I have like, a bagillion pictures to post, so stay tuned.

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 00:13:18 GMT

Today was picture day. Picture day is annoying. Why do school pictures always turn out like shit?
I also hate school. Fuck homework.
&& I want to switch into Spanish and Soft. Apps. with Raul.

I think I'm giving up on James. I haven't seen him in about 2 months or so.
Plus, I now have a 'crush' on this guy in one of my classes.
But Erica keeps kinda flirting with him and he kinda flirts back and it seems like they like eachother, and that annoys me.
I don't even know why I like him. I mean, he's not the most attractive guy in the world or anything [he's just cute], but I dunno, he just seems super cool.

I found out tonight that my sister read/reads my journal.
Ummmm, that's really not cool with me at all, therefor I am pissed off right now.

I'm updating later/tomorrow with pictures.
WOOT.

I'm sorry but I've gotta move on with my own life

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 04:35:51 GMT

Guys need to be like more forward or something.
Just frickin' admit it when you have feelings for someone else.
Goodness gracious.
Stop acting like a fool and be serious.

Yesterday was funnnnn I went to the Orioles game with Josh and they wonnnn. It was so exciting. Then I went to Ariana's house and Molly, Leah, Naomi 1&2, Alex, and Steph were there too. We slept for like 2 hours so now i'm incredibly tiiiiired.

Today was pretty much fun.
I love hanging out with people. ♥
The neighborhood BBQ thing wasn't as bad as I thought it'd be.

I ate too much food though. I feel fat now, hahaaaa.

this is what we call The Michelle. Haha. It's where you are "trying to look sexy but actually look like you're sniffing your arm pit." =P

♥ Jakey

aww, sisterly love.

♥ Lorrrr

P.S. I'm trying not to think about it too much, but it's hard. It's gonna take me a while to get over it, I think, but I will.

BAAAAAAH, whatevs

Fri, 25 Aug 2006 01:40:10 GMT

I broke down today. I just randomly get sad and depressed about the whole situation. It's not fair that he has someone to fall back on. I'm sitting here crying and he's probably talking to this other bitch on the phone, perfectly fine. WTF?
I was going to rant and say everything I thought about earlier, but it'll probably just make me more sad again. I went to hockey and it got my mind off things temporarily.

I'm going to the Orioles game tomorrow, with Josh.
&& BBYO/BBG thing afterwards.
Looking forward to both of those.

I started my period today. I was in the mall with Michelle after Josh left us and we both went to the bathroom and at almost the same time, we're like "SHIT". It was actually really weird and ironic and all that good stuff. But anyways, that means all my energy is drained and BLAAAAH.
I'm gonna go read The Hot Zone. It's kind of starting to interest me.

All of you who are going to college (for the first time, or back again), good luck and have fun. =]
School starting Monday = pretty sucky.

broken hearts = :[

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 17:34:07 GMT

I did it. I finally told him never to talk to me again. I don't understand how he could do this after how many times we talked about how it hurt him and how we promised we'd never do it to anyone else the rest of our lives. He's full of shit and lies and I hope he dies.

I blocked everything, deleted his number from my phone, erased all of his comments on myspace, etc.

It hurts a lot. I know it was the right thing to do, but I'm still really sad and my heart is broken. Once again. I'm not going to let him do this ever again.

I'm going to get my haircut. It makes me kind of sad, because he was helping me find a haircut that would look nice, and now I don't get to show it off to him, or to anyone. :[

3 more hours alone in this house. Ugh. I hate being alone, especially now.

I hate the fact that whatever good music I listen to now makes me sad. I don't even know if I can listen to Dane Cook now, and that makes me very upset.

I don't want to play this game anymore

Wed, 23 Aug 2006 03:48:26 GMT

Um, so we haven't really talked since like last Thursday or something. Maybe even before that. It's a bit weird.

&& last night I had the worst nightmare. He was having sex with her.
I want them both to fucking die.
It's like, I know I have to get him out and tell him to never talk to me again, but I just can't do it. He's so familiar to me, he knows all the little things, I know all the little things about him, we were going to be something. I wanted to see what the future was going to be. I feel like I can't give it all up. I just can't stand to be alone.

I can't listen to any good songs anymore. They all remind me of him.
Songs that used to make me happy, now make me feel sick to my stomach.

I don't understand why he hasn't even tried to talk to me. I don't understand why he hasn't tried to explain or anything.
He honestly doesn't give a shit about me anymore.
Sometimes I feel like no one does.

Great, now I'm in one of these moods. =[

THIS IS JOSH.

THIS IS ME BEATING UP ANNIE

That's all for now. Maybe some more coming soon.

Oh my gosh

Tue, 22 Aug 2006 00:04:29 GMT

Caught him cheating. Don't know what to do, think, say, etc. I'm just really in shock. I don't know what my emotions are. It's like, anger, sadness, and a whole bunch of other things..
:// I could use a little support, which I don't have.

I did go to Harpers Ferry, WV today to go white water rafting. It was really fun and we had fun guides and stuff, but I got sunburnt. && it's not normal sunburnt, it's like sunburnt in random little patches all over my body. Like, on my leg theres a little deformed shape of sunburn, then on the other leg theres a little circle, then on my back there's a few strips, etc. I should take a picture of it, 'cause it's really weird.

BLAH.

I've been tagged; and a little update

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 20:59:24 GMT

Yay, I've been tagged by unnecessary_

Explain your LiveJournal name and its meaning. When you're done, tag as many people as there are letters in your name.

When I was little my younger sister and I used to write little songs and come up with random band names that we thought were oh-so awesome. And one day like a year ago, she was like, "hey, remember when we used to make up band names and write songs, like Triskits (but with the K turned the other way because you know that's so much cooler) and Compact Dysk?" && it was just a childhood memory that makes me smile, so I made it my username. I couldn't think of anything else at the time, ok? Haha. =P

I guess I tag ___kneesocks, __pinksocks, accordexgirl, chaoscdcreation, e_leutherius, fireisgood, herasphyxia, le_slacker, pleased2meetu, purple_punkage, tsuno </span>

I don't think I should stand for the way he's treating me right now. He hasn't talked to me in 3 days about what's going on, he's ignoring me. After I told him how I think he doesn't give a shit anymore. I guess it's really obvious now, huh? I don't know what to do really though. Should I not stand for it anymore and tell him to never try talking to me again? I DON'T KNOW. UGGGGH.

I had hockey practice this morning from 10-2. On ice and off ice. It was pretty intense and I'm basically dying now. But I'm going to Shadowland tonight which means more running around. I'm not exactly up for it, but it's something to do. && I'm hoping it'll be fun, because I need to have some fun, hang out with people, get things off my mind, whatevs.

Tomorrow my family is going white water rafting in West Virginia. Um, dunno how that will go, but hopefully it'll be cool.</span>

I'm so done with this

Sat, 19 Aug 2006 20:56:36 GMT

Me:
sometimes I feel like you dont give a shit.

*certain person* :
sometimes i feel like you expect me to always be around for you, regardless of the rest of my life

I feel so....hurt. I don't need to be bashed anymore.
I give so much to everyone, I put so much into every single relationship/friendship that I have.
&& I get this shit.